Saturday, March 10, 2018

The First Week

1 week down....5 to go!

I may have shared this idea before, but it's come up again: Everyone should have really hard trials so they can feel what it's like to be lifted up through prayer, to be given God's power to do hard things, and to see God working through the earthly angels around you. I keep feeling so happy by all the service being done to us but then I feel guilty being given so much when I know that other moms could use this service too. Maybe the message is we should all serve each other more even if our kids haven't just had surgery. The receiving end of service feels so good.

Day 1 post-op was ok. Evan woke up well, but was still groggy all day. People would come in to check on him and he would say, "I'm going to have surgery and then I'll be in a wheelchair." They would look confused and I would clarify to Evan--You already HAD surgery. That's why you have those casts... He was kept well-stocked with pain meds and didn't have much of an appetite. He seemed to be most bothered by having to keep his legs elevated. He kept scrunching them up near his chest which would push the pillows away and put pressure on his heels. Getting comfortable was tough. He really wanted to be in his wheelchair (which he didn't even have yet). We watched shows, tried (unsuccessfully) to nap, talked to a lot of doctors and nurses, ordered dinner, gave him leg rubs with lotion. Seth had a really hard time being in the room without destroying something or doing something dangerous, so we kept rotating which parent would take him for a walk or go play downstairs while the other stayed with Evan. I don't remember what happened at night to set Evan off, but he was mad and grumpy and uncomfortable and exhausted. Isaiah managed to find a wagon and Evan got to take a quick ride around the floor before bed. Isaiah drew the short straw and stayed with Evan through the night. Seth and I slept like angels. Isaiah sent me videos of Evan singing along to Moana, a little bit happier than when I had left him.

Day 2 I got a 5 am text to bring food quick! Mr. HANGRY pants was awake. Seth and I quickly dressed and ran up with a banana, cereal, and a yogurt. Apparently Evan could not wait for the 8 am chocolate chip pancakes we ordered. Isaiah left with Seth to go take a nap downstairs after a less-than-restful night. He said Evan had slept in one-hour stretches. Poor stomach sleeper being forced to stay on his back, not to mention the bi-hourly medicine interruptions. The nurses said pain management was more important than sleep over the first 24 hours as the anesthesia was wearing off and his actual pain level was becoming apparent. I got Evan dressed to help him feel a little more normal (the nurses thought it was hilarious that he picked a "fancy" shirt to wear). He took a short nap. Next we just needed to start crossing things off the list to be discharged.

Note that any smile pictures for the first 48 hours were forced. He was most likely mad before and after the picture was taken.

1. Blood draw. This was the worst. Evan was not prepared and was panicking and screaming. The first nurse missed his vein so they left and said they'd let him calm down and try again in 15 minutes. During that time I had a heart to heart with Evan about how much I'm scared of needles but I had to have a lot of IVs when I was pregnant with him. We cried together about how hard his situation was and how crummy it is to have surgery and have all these people bother you. I told him they had to check his blood before we could go home, and if he did everything he needed to, we could go home today and sleep in his own bed and not have anyone wake him up. When the second nurse came in, she let me sit by him in bed. He squirmed and squeezed my hand but I don't think he even cried the second time. Check!

2. Remove the drain bags from his legs. After surgery, the injury swells. To ease the swelling, in addition to elevating the legs, the doctor put a little hole in the skin above his incisions and placed a catheter-type tube inside, with a pouch at the end. These pouches were collecting blood that would otherwise be pooling around the incision. It was disgusting, actually, because the bags were just hanging outside of his casts. In the morning the doctor came in and simply pulled the tubes out. They had done their job. Check!

3. We were initially told Evan needed to meet with PT/OT before leaving, but the doctor said they would basically be useless and he didn't need that. Thank you! Check!

4. Get a wheelchair. With having surgery scheduled for over a month, you'd think that getting a rental wheelchair would have already been arranged, right? This was UCSF's error. They didn't reach out to a wheelchair rental place until the day before surgery, which is not enough time to get one delivered to our house. We hoped, then, that they would send us home with a hospital wheelchair. Turns out they didn't have one his size. They better thank their lucky stars that I brought a stroller, anticipating that might happen. Check!

5. Remove IV. Pack up. Head out! We were out of there at 11 am. Earliest discharge we've ever experienced. While I was grateful for this, it did make me start to feel like, "Wait, are you sure you don't need to keep him on monitors a little longer? Are you sure we can take care of him on our own?!"

Seth fell asleep in the car before we pulled out of the UCSF parking lot. Evan took a short nap, but as his pain medicine wore off he started complaining that his legs hurt. It was a bit of a rough drive after that, trying to distract him from the pain. He was mad. He was hurting. And we didn't have anything to give him until we got home. I started thinking, "What did we get ourselves into?!" At home we quickly gave him Tylenol, then picked up Oxycodone at the pharmacy and gave him that as well. Someone from our ward brought dinner that night and we rented Coco. Evan slept like a baby on a trundle bed next to ours.

On Sunday he was a new person. Honestly, if we had a wheelchair I would have taken him to church. We started spacing out his pain meds as needed. We all napped. Someone brought dinner again.

On Monday someone watched the boys so I could go grocery shopping. Our friends came to our house for play group since we couldn't go out without a wheelchair. We started giving Evan short moments without his legs elevated. He laid on the floor and experimented with crawling. I'm starting to get used to this whole people bringing us dinner thing.

On Tuesday someone babysat Seth so he wouldn't get to stir-crazy and so I could spend one-on-one time with Evan. He is still taking daily naps and eating like a bird at this point but he said he's not in pain and so he stopped taking all pain medicine. I was surprised when I went out to check the mail and found a wheelchair delivery truck in front of my house. Finally!!

Wed, Thurs, Fri brought the new experiences of taking the wheelchair to a store, library story time, grocery shopping (I don't recommend doing this without a second adult), a park, and a restaurant.

So far, one week in, things have been overall easier than expected. I think some reasons why are: 1) The casts are below the knee, 2) He is not experiencing pain--at most he says his legs are tickly, 3) Friends have brought crafts, books, activity bags, food, letters, and 4) Fasting and prayer. As far as life in a wheelchair goes, I think it's easier when we know it's temporary, when I can still easily carry Evan in and out of his chair, and when his chair is small enough to pack up and carry on my own. Also, people are really kind and often offer to help.

Monday, March 5, 2018

Surgery #4

Tibial Osteotomy

We went to San Francisco on Monday to meet with anesthesia and the orthopedic surgeon one last time and sign consent. There was a child life specialist who met with Evan and went through a whole role play of what to expect on Friday. They had little doctor dolls with masks and hair nets, and they had a little doll with a hospital gown. They had a miniature operating table, a tiny IV and a little mouthpiece for anesthesia. She let Evan control the scene and told him everything that would happen. Then she gave Evan his actual breathing mouthpiece and let him choose a scent to put in it for comfort. He chose chocolate.

We had a check-in time of 5:30 am for a 7:30 start on Friday. We were SO blessed to get a room in the Ronald McDonald House on the 1st floor of the hospital. We were able to stay there Thursday night to avoid such an early drive on Friday. A miracle happened Thursday night. We all got into our room, laid down in bed, turned off the lights, and... SILENCE. Seth--who typically jumps in bed, cries, plays with toys, leaves his room a million times, and takes two hours to fall asleep--was SILENT, and went right to bed. I was amazed.

In the morning, Evan and I went up to the 2nd floor at 5:30. We watched the Minion movie in the waiting room. The child life lady was there with Evan's mask. She brought him into a room to decorate it with stickers and rub the chocolate scent in it. Isaiah and Seth came and joined us. Then we went back to the pre-op room. There was a tablet where Evan played a donut game. Seth did lap after lap around the floor in the wagon and cozy coupe taxi. We pointed out all the animal decals on the walls. I kept waiting for the point where Evan would get scared. Maybe once we were in pre-op? Maybe once he had his hospital gown on? Maybe once they started wheeling him to the OR? Maybe when they started anesthesia? It never happened. He was so calm. His only crying that morning was prior to going up to the waiting room when he was so eager to leave that he wouldn't let Isaiah give him a blessing.

I went back to the OR with Evan. One of the doctors said she has a 20-year old son with spina bifida, and another said that Evan already had a special place in all of their hearts for that reason. They scooted him onto the operating table, he breathed through his chocolate mask for about a minute while we talked about chocolate brownies and chocolate syrup, and then his eyes fluttered closed. I gave him a kiss, (cried a little), and left. The doctors told me they'd take good care of him.

We received text updates about every hour letting us know, "The procedure is in progress.", "The patient is doing well.", "The procedure is going well." We took a walk outside, played on the grass hill, and bought Evan a "Get Whale Soon" balloon. I was again so grateful to have a room in the Ronald McDonald House so we could relax and Seth could nap. About 1 or 2 o'clock we got the message to go to the waiting room. Isaiah went up and got the report from the doctor that things went well. After a little while he was able to go back and see Evan, whose first request was to play the donut game again.

The thing I was most nervous about with the surgery was him waking up afterwards (or rather, not waking up). This is a fairly basic surgery with limited risks, but it was almost exactly 3 years ago when Evan had his shunt surgery (also pretty standard) and didn't wake up when he should have, leaving us wondering if he was brain dead. Even though I was receiving positive texts about this osteotomy, I was not relieved until I knew Evan was awake and responding afterwards. Thankfully that happened much, much faster this time around.

About the osteotomy: Evan's feet pointed in. In looking at his legs, you could see he had some turn in from the hip to the knee, but the majority of rotation was from the knee to the ankle. From what she described (obviously I can't see it yet), the surgeon made a two inch vertical incision at each ankle. They opened things up, put protection around the bone to avoid injuring the soft tissue, and then cut both the tibia and fibula. At that point they rotate the foot and basically eyeball his foot to line it up with his knee. Then they put in a plate and screws which holds everything in place until the bone can heal. They cut at the bottom of the tibia because it's a good place for healing. They cut the fibula also to avoid straining the ankle after the rotation. I still don't entirely understand how it works, but I know his legs are now straight for the first time in his life.

Prior to surgery we thought he would be put in casts up to his mid-thigh. The surgeon said she had never performed this surgery on someone as young as Evan so she wasn't sure if there was a plate that would fit him. She said they would try to use a plate and screws because it is the most secure, but if it was looking too big and awkward then they would do pins. The pins are not as secure so they would have needed to cast higher up for stability. We were super relieved that the plate worked and his casts go to just below the knee. I'm glad Evan was okay with the length. I'd only told him a thousand times exactly where his casts would go up to on his legs. He also had memorized the spiel, "I'm going to have surgery and then I'm going to be in a wheelchair." After surgery he kept repeating that. I told him he already had surgery...that's why he had casts on. He was extremely confused why he wasn't in a wheelchair yet. "Where's the wheelchair?" "When am I going to be in a wheelchair?"

Tuesday, February 13, 2018


I've been overwhelmed by the support and concern for my family. Thank you.

The amount of kind words and praise for my mothering makes me feel like I'm not getting the true picture of my life across in this blog. As I'm typing, Seth is crying in the dark garage for the 2nd or 3rd time tonight (probably won't be his last) because he has gotten out of his bed AGAIN. I've spanked him today, too. And yelled. And put myself in time out. I want to make sure a balanced view of my life is being portrayed here.

I'm still learning a lot. I was most surprised today to hear from multiple people who are unaware of the social stigmas surrounding epilepsy. I'm so grateful for that! I hope I'm in a minority of [previously] ignorant people. I am grateful for a few people who have shared their epilepsy stories, most of which were new to me. Another important thing I learned today is that, "Epilepsy stereotypes exist because people with reasonably well-controlled epilepsy often don't talk about their seizure disorder or reveal it to their friends and co-workers out of fear of repercussions or epilepsy stigma. 'It's the people who have the most severe, poorly controlled epilepsy who define these epilepsy stereotypes because they more obviously represent the condition.'"1 The more people share their stories, the fewer exaggerated and incorrect stereotypes.

Today I had to reflect on why I have this stigma in my mind. I believe it came from one particular person I knew who had epilepsy. This person struggled academically and socially, and I assumed it was because of the epilepsy. With me being young at the time and that being my first experience with epilepsy, it stuck--even though everyone I've met with epilepsy since then has not struggled in those same ways. As I met more people with epilepsy I merely adjusted my thinking from "People with epilepsy are affected mentally" to "People with epilepsy CAN be affected mentally," and that's what I honestly believed until yesterday. I researched Googled "epilepsy social stigma" and found a super helpful article that quickly debunked my misconceptions.

I'm copying from this article1:

"The most prominent epilepsy stereotype is that epilepsy is a mental illness... In actuality, individuals with epilepsy do not have a mental illness derived from their seizure disorder. However, people with epilepsy are at higher risk for depression, anxiety, and illnesses pertaining to low self-esteem."

Other epilepsy stereotypes include the following:

Epilepsy stigma: Epilepsy is associated with neurological disabilities, such as developmental delay.
Epilepsy truth: "The majority of people who have seizure disorders do not have neurological disabilities," Dr. Haltiner says.

Epilepsy stigma: People with epilepsy are violent.
Epilepsy truth: "During a seizure, a person may appear frightened, confused, angry, or combative, but violent behaviors are not associated with epilepsy," Patternak says.

Epilepsy stigma: People with epilepsy cannot hold a job.
Epilepsy truth: "Although some individuals may have restrictions - such as driving, lifting heavy objects, or climbing ladders - many people with epilepsy are able to successfully work," Patternak says.

I'm still trying to figure Evan out, but now I've learned that if he has social or developmental delays, it's not because of epilepsy. Thanks for helping me learn that. It's a lot less scary now that I know the truth.

Saturday, February 10, 2018

Mental Health

"Evan's EEG showed some abnormal movement. It appears like it could be epileptic. We're going to do two things. 1) Start Evan on a low dose of medication, and 2) Do a sedated MRI to get more detailed imaging of his brain, particularly in the place where the movement was."

Now I'm having a hard time with this post. Being a few days removed from the news I'm less emotional about it now, and I don't quite know how to be "PC" about mental health, but I feel it's important to open this discussion, so here goes...

I have seen many instances where parents receive a diagnosis for their child's mental/learning disability and become very distraught or depressed. I've never quite understood the reason for being upset. To me, I felt like parents should not really be surprised to be told their child has a disability--like, say, autism. They have seen their child's abnormal behavior, probably know something is different, and a diagnosis would probably be a relief. Now they can move forward with therapy and whatever other services they need.

I wasn't told that Evan has epilepsy, exactly, but we are essentially treating him now as if he does. And hearing that news was a lot harder on me than I thought it would be. Shouldn't I have been relieved to have a possible answer for his problem?

I wasn't expecting anything to come out of the EEG. I was expecting that Evan's tongue-twitching episodes were going to be unexplainable, and I was going to be okay with that because it would be easier than hearing that something is physically wrong with your child's brain. I absolutely know that people can live happy, successful lives with epilepsy. I know several of these people. But my honest first thought was fear. Would he be able to get married? Can he live independently? Will he have many true friends? What will people think of him? I was scared. I was sad for him. And now I can understand why parents have a hard time receiving a diagnosis. Although I could already sense that Evan is different, saying 'epilepsy' makes it definite. The odd behaviors that I hoped were just him being a 5-year old may be lifelong challenges. That's a heavy burden.

There are two things I'm processing right now: How Evan actually behaves, and the epilepsy (or I'd even say the spina bifida) STIGMA. People with epilepsy aren't "slow," "dumb." Not everyone with spina bifida is "socially awkward," has "learning disabilities," "walks funny." I have felt, though, that these LABELS are very prevalent. Some labels are based on truth. Some are based on experience with one particular person rather than the majority. It's hard to be given a label and not start to fall victim to stigma thoughts. On the other hand, I don't think you can just erase or ignore a label like a mental disability. I've had well-meaning people say things about Evan like, "But he's so smart!" "He has so much personality." Yes, that's very true. I hope these people are getting a more accurate view of epilepsy and spina bifida than the stigma allows. You can be smart and have personality even if you have a mental disability. I think that's the moral of this post.

What do I want you to do? I want you to treat Evan normally. But, if he responds in an abnormal way, please be understanding that he has a few diagnoses that affect his interactions with the world. And please love him anyway. 

Saturday, February 3, 2018

A Spina Bifida Moment

In spina bifida circles I often hear something like, "I'm having an 'I hate spina bifida' day." Which means two things. 1) Some days it's really hard to deal with spina bifida, and 2) Some days it's not. 

There were two instances in January where I witnessed Evan having an episode where his lower lip felt tingly and his tongue had spasms, making it hard for him to talk. It lasts about a minute or two and then goes away. He's completely coherent when it happens. He told me about 3-4 other times when it happened that I didn't see. The second time I saw it, I filmed it and then quickly contacted neurosurgery at UCSF. They shared our experience and video with neurology and their epilepsy team and scheduled us for a neurology consult. 

Neurology Appointment
San Francisco, January 12, 2018

Our typical encounters with neurology at spina bifida clinic go something like:
     "He looks good. Do you have any questions?" 
      Me: "Nope."

We are aware that Evan has heterotopia and hydrocephalus and Chiari II--all sorts of brain abnormalities. But they haven't been symptomatic enough to meet directly with neurology before. The neurologist asked lots of questions, did some observations, and watched our video. She concluded it didn't look like seizures--too localized. Didn't look like Bells Palsy--not enough facial droop. He's the right age to develop a tic--but his tongue spasms seem involuntary and a tic wouldn't normally include tingling. Maybe an allergic reaction? Basically...she didn't know. It's hard to tell. She scheduled us for an EEG.

The boys love playing on this hill outside the hospital
View of the Warrior's new arena being built across the street from UCSF
Foggy view of the bay from the Lawrence Science Center at Berkeley

EEG & Orthopedics Consult
San Francisco, January 25, 2018

The blessed-cursed day

Curse: Steering goes out and battery light turns on in the car while I'm on the freeway.
Blessing: The car does not break down on the Bay Bridge.
Curse: The car does break down before we make it to the hospital.
Blessing: We just added roadside assistance to our insurance plan. Phew! Tow guy picks us up super fast and is willing to drop us off at the hospital. We make it to our appointments in time.
Small Curse: I didn't get to stop at Dynamo Donuts and get the passion fruit chocolate donut I've been dreaming about since the last time we came. *sniff sniff
Blessing: Appointments go smoothly.
Curse: UCSF has the worst cell service in the world. My phone battery nearly dies.
Blessing: Isaiah stayed home from work and can keep in touch with the car repair shop while I'm at the hospital. I brought a fully-charged iPad and am able to write down directions to the car repair shop. It's only 1.7 miles away so we can walk. We didn't have Seth. Evan is strong. It's not raining like the forecast said. All good things. We can make it!
Curse: Evan has to go potty 1/2 mile into our walk.
Blessing: Community park and bathroom appear out of nowhere on the next block. Remember, this is San Francisco. Parks are rare.
Curse: Isaiah calls on our way to the shop. The car won't be fixed until tomorrow. Oh, and it's going to cost $800.
Blessing: Car repair shop guy gets us a great deal on a rental car to take home. Enterprise comes to pick us up. (I can't stop saying their motto to myself while we're driving.)
Giant Blessing: As we pull into Enterprise, car repair shop guy calls and says they will be able to fix our car today after all!! Super sweet Enterprise driver lady takes us back to the shop. We get our car fixed for slightly less than expected, and best of all we don't have to drive back tomorrow.

What a day!

Evan was thrilled to ride in a tow truck. I was less than amused.
Child services had paint in the waiting room for the EEG

At this point I'm having flashbacks to Evan's shunt surgery 3 years ago when he didn't wake up and they did an EEG to see if he was alive.

We got to cross Hwy 101 on this AWESOME bridge on our way to the car shop. I want to go back. It has the coolest view of downtown and you're on top of all the cars. It's crazy!

I should mention a few things. First, we didn't expect the EEG to show much of anything. His tongue episodes are so infrequent and they go away, and he has no other symptoms of shunt failure or anything. Nothing indicates this is a severe problem, and chances of anything showing up on an EEG are small. But we're trying to cover our bases by having this imaging done.

Also, since we were making the trip to UCSF anyway, I also scheduled a consult with Orthopedics to discuss the osteotomy surgery. They did leg x-rays and basically told us that Evan is a great candidate for surgery and we can call to set up a date when we're ready. It's been an overwhelming day and I need to talk to Isaiah first.

So...the next day Ortho calls me and says, "Pick a day for surgery and we'll pencil you in." I pick March 2. Eek! What have I gotten myself into? I hope we're making the right choice. This is gonna be terrible! I'm excited. I'm scared. We got this!

Then we get the call from neurology a few days later... This is where the whole "I hate spina bifida day" thing comes in. Not that we're surprised by this kind of news anymore, but Evan's EEG showed abnormal brain activity. I have a lot of thoughts on this.

To be continued...

Tuesday, January 2, 2018

5 and 2

Each year Evan's understanding of birthdays and holidays grows. All prior to his birthday he kept asking if it was his birthday yet, and when would he be 5? When his birthday finally came, he woke up and came into our room. "Happy birthday, Evan! It's your birthday today!" 

"Am I 5 now?" YES!

Evan had a train party this year. We took one of his besties on a 45-minute "train" (light rail) ride around town. Then we headed to a train-themed park for some train food, cake, painting wooden trains, and giant bubbles with more friends and family. 

For Sethy boy, we had two friends over to celebrate him turning 2 by playing with his favorite things--BALLS!! We set out a ball pit and water beads and had doughnuts and melon balls. The boys jumped on the trampoline with big balls. 

He jumps in his crib when he wakes up and before he falls asleep at night, but he always goes right to bed for naps. Isaiah often gets him out of his crib in the morning, and then he comes to my side of the bed and asks for cereal. He loves dinosaur egg oatmeal and cereal for breakfast and is usually starving in the morning because he doesn't eat much dinner. He is good at playing on his own, often preferring toys to TV (thank goodness!) He sneaks snacks from the pantry all the time. He has become adept at moving his stool wherever he needs to reach something higher. He always brings phones, computers, and remotes to whichever parent they belong to. He hates having his clothes off. He'll say, "Dressed! My dressed!" if his pants are off. He is the first to find his shoes (and everyone else's shoes) when it's time to go somewhere. "I do it myself" is his motto. Doesn't matter if he CAN'T do it. He'll insist on doing it anyway. If he messes up he gets mad. I have a feeling he is going to accomplish a lot through his stubbornness and perfectionism. He won't eat chunks in his yogurt. He asks for a million drinks of water before bed. He no longer sits still, meaning he no longer gets to go grocery shopping with me and we spend Sacrament meeting in the hallways. He loves me to "hold you." He usually picks Mama when he needs consolation. He is scared of the dark.
Some funny things he says are: ga heep (basketball hoop), bah gij tuck (garbage truck), kitchen (chicken), how 'bout... fish cake?, Can I come?, uhbucka high (up high), luh loo (love you)

Seth has an obvious influence on his big brother. Evan has picked up some of Seth's funny words--he talks to Seth in their own toddler way. He falls asleep despite Seth's jumping, talking, and singing. He also adores cereal and dinosaur egg oatmeal. He is particular about his hair combing--the bigger the wave, the better. He would watch tv all day if I let him, but he always asks permission. He wants me to watch him do everything. "Look, mom!" He challenges me to guess what he's drawn (on paper or his new favorite--Etch a Sketch). I pretty much never guess right. I blame him. He would almost always prefer his "gray shoes but not the ones with my braces," but he puts up with his braces well. He stays in the bath about 4 times longer than Seth lasts and can wash his own hair now. With our new van, he loves opening and closing his own door. He repeats himself a lot and asks the same questions on repeat all day. He's got my temper, though we're both really working on it. He loves to boss around Seth. He likes being my helper--in the kitchen, with cleaning, watching shows, anything. He would rather clean with me than play with toys by himself. He hates doing anything by himself and can't stand being in a room alone.

Monday, January 1, 2018

December 2017

Once November 1st hit, I planned out our entire month of December. Yes, one month ahead. I've found the past few years that when I try to plan things in December it stresses me out and we end up not doing everything I want. I loved this December. I did everything I wanted to and more. The boys are the perfect ages to enjoy Christmas and all the activities.

The Christmas Train!! Our train was a huge hit this year. Seth obsessed over pushing the buttons on and off. Both boys would sit by the train for half an hour, humming all the songs over and over again. Seth only took the train off the tracks a handful of times. It was totally worth it to save the presents and ornaments which amazingly remained basically untouched all through December.

There were only two kids at the entire ward party who did not want to sit on Santa's lap... mine. Evan later said, "He looked new..." After some questioning I figured out he meant "different." Evan was unsure about sitting on his lap because he was more of a Father Christmas type and didn't look like the Santa he was accustomed to. (Not like that really would have made a difference...)

Candy Cane Lane in Vacaville
Home Depot gingerbread house building

Park playgroup every Monday
"Dear Santa, I've been a good boy this year. I would like: I keem (ice cream), dino zeer-al (dinosaur cereal), A cha ga (I am a child of God), more i keem! (more ice cream). Thank you! I love you! Seth

Letters to Santa
One day, when I had an extremely tine-sensitive engagement, Isaiah accidentally took both boys' car seats to work in his car. So... Evan sat on a pillow and Seth used his infant car seat. Please don't call CPS on me.

Evan got to play a wise man for our ward's primary nativity reenactment. The nativity play goes along with the Stake Nativity Festival, a 3-day massive nativity display at the church. I helped set up one of the rooms this year with the theme, "What is your Nativity?" We tied in the classic nativities  and Christ's pedigrees with family history pictures/books.

I don't usually get to see Evan with his friends at school because he takes the bus. But there were a few super busy days last month where we ran errands all morning and I took him straight to school. He's so cute there in the back.

New van! (This is not a pregnancy announcement.)
Evan failed his eye test at the pediatrician several months ago. Because of that, and just because he has hydrocephalus which can affect his eyes, we took him to a routine eye exam. He did great! The doctor said he wished his eyes were as good as Evan's. He said Evan may be a bit far sighted right now (about 20/25 in both eyes), but that's pretty typical for his age. And he tested poorly on the depth perception but that may also be related to his maturity. He was given glasses to wear after they dilated his eyes. I sent him on the bus with the glasses and sent a text to his teacher asking her to help him wear them while he's outside. When he came home he told me he kept them on the entire time at school. His bus driver called him "Hollywood".

Preschool 2017-18

Christmas baking day(s) this year consisted of: 4 batches of cinnamon rolls, homemade oreos, white chocolate cranberry cookies, chocolate fudge, apple pie fudge, corn flake wreaths, and these pretzel kiss candies that the boys made.

Isaiah got a chainsaw for his birthday and immediately commenced his winter pruning. He's just itching to chop down the tree in the front yard.

Uncle Josh decided to join us Christmas morning so Evan made him a stocking. What a surprise that Santa knew he would be there and had a few presents for him under the tree. We were so lucky to see Santa Christmas morning! We spied on him as he brought in a few last presents and ate his cookies/egg nog. He said Evan needs to eat his vegetables like the doctor told him. Isaiah only caught Santa on video for a second..."Merry Christmas to all, and to all a good night!" And he brought light sabers!